The 35th Song

[tangledintower]

...I'm lonely.

I mean, I guess I've been lonely for a long time. Growing up, it was me and Mother for years, and nobody else. Then Pascal showed up, but for the longest time, I really didn't know...well, anybody.

I can't really get over that, you know? I still don't feel like I really know anybody, or anything...Mother said that I was gullible and naive, and she's probably right. She knows more people than I do. And maybe those are just things that come with being lonely.

...I don't really know why I'm talking about this. I shouldn't feel like this, not know, not when I'm out of the tower and actually living and meeting people and making friends, but...

Comments

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Well, I mean, isn't that everybody? No matter what anyone does, there's gonna be more stuff out there they don't know than stuff they do. And like, I'm sure there are things you know that most people don't.

[tangledintower.livejournal.com]

Well, there is one thing...

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Yeah? Thought there must be.

[tangledintower.livejournal.com]

Yeah! There is one thing!

[boom, switching over to the cheer up mode of the curse.]

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Bet there's stuff you could teach me.

[tangledintower.livejournal.com]

Well, I mean, my one really special unique thing isn't really teachable...

But I could teach you some painting and art stuff! Oooh, and baking. I'm good at that too.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Sure, yeah! That'd be cool.

What's this special unteachable thing of yours, anyway?

[tangledintower.livejournal.com]

It's something I'm not supposed to really tell or show anybody...but I had a very important talk with Flynn, and I've decided that if I've got a gift, I need to use it to help people.

So I guess I can show you.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

[Okay, now Neil is really curious.]

Is it, like, magic or something?

[tangledintower.livejournal.com]

Uhhh...yes...

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Whoa, for real? [He was half-kidding!] That's awesome!

[tangledintower.livejournal.com]

[And here comes the embarrassment...]

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

What? What's wrong?

[tangledintower.livejournal.com]

Nothing...

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

You don't have to be embarrassed or whatever. Magic's cool.

[tangledintower.livejournal.com]

...It's supposed to be a secret...it needs to be protected from people who could abuse it...I'm not really supposed to show off...

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Oh. Well, y'know, it's cool. You don't have to.

[tangledintower.livejournal.com]

No. I want to show you. I'm tired of having a gift I can never use to help people because I'm afraid of people.

[You better be hurt though. Not badly, but enough to actually show what she can do.]

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

I'm, like, the last person you need to be afraid of.

[tangledintower.livejournal.com]

I'm learning that. It's good to know I have at least 3 people I can trust absolutely completely....I mean, I do trust other people, I...telling people about my hair is sort of new.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Yeah, you can totally trust me. I-- did you say your hair?

[He sounds more curious than anything. That's not what he was expecting to hear.]

[tangledintower.livejournal.com]

Ah...yeah, I did.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

What... about your hair...?

[tangledintower.livejournal.com]

Uh...

Well...I guess I can just show you...?

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Sure.